After struggling about whether to go for a retreat I scheduled one month ago, I decided to drag my tired body to drive for 2 hours to Cincinnati.
So here I am: surrounded by woods!
Here I was able to have a prayer walk, enjoy the nature and praise God.
I am planning to go back to China and I believer the Lord called me to do so.
Occasionally I would be anxious about what will happen when I go back. What if my dad push me to get married? What if my dad is preparing for the documents for me to immigrate? What if I can’t find the fellowship similar to the one I enjoy here? What if I am asked to do some unethical things at work?
Oh Lord! Please help me! Apart from you I can truly do nothing. Even thinking about the future can create headache…
The Lord commands, “Amity, be still and know that I am God.”
Here I am, not yet home, but is weary already. When can I learn to be still? When can I go rest in Him? When can I stop being obsessed with doing something? When can I say no to “self-sufficiency?
“In quietness and confidence would be your strength…..”
Thankfully this prayer retreat helped me shift the focus back to God and ask for His wisdom.
Here I learned to slow down and hear what God has to say. I trust that within God’s moral will, I can make the decision boldly sometimes knowing that He will bless me and the decision.
On the way back to Columbus, a thought came to my mind. It is fun to have an adventure with God the Father! Unknowns can be exciting! Hey…and we already know who will win!
Now, when I reflected on my faith journey after the retreat, I can see the seed of peace and patience has grown up a little bit more. Only He can do it!