I am going to share my testimony with the LORD. I hope it could encourage you.
I have three moments with God.
When I was an elementary student, one day, before I did my homework, I thought I need to spend an hour finishing it. However, I just took half hour. I was so surprised and I did not think I can make it. I thought there must be someone helped me to finish it. So, because of this guy, my whole elementary life was wonderful. This is my first moment with God, even though I did not know him.
However, because of having great days, I totally forgot this helping guy. Thus, when I went to middle school and high school, my life was messed. I was bullied by my classmates; I had bad relationship with my parents; I was afraid of talking; I felt everything has no meaning. There was no hope for me. I bought a book. Its name is ‘Tolerance’. The reason I bought it is I thought I may do something bad or hurt someone before. So, I think I need someone’s forgiveness. Coincidentally, this book is not just talking about Tolerance, it is also talking about Renaissance and religious reform. This is the first time that I knew God. And, I thought, maybe, that guy who used to help me is God. But, I still cannot make sure. Plus, my life still did not be better. So, sometimes, I was thinking, “Where is he? Why he does not want to help me? Why he leaves me? Maybe I am hopeless, so he leaves me.”
When I was a sophomore and being an exchange student in Taiwan. I met my aunt and her husband. Surprisingly, they are both Baptist. They told me this guy who used to help me is God! And, they also gave me the first Bible in my life. I thought, “Yeah! Might be him.” This is my second moment with God.
After being an exchanging student in Taiwan, I came back to China. But, my life was still not going better. I tried to read the Bible, put it in my bag and carried it with me. I even bought and wore Cross-neckless. I was upset, I thought, “Maybe God already left me. Maybe, God does not belong to Chinese, I have no right to deserve his love in the beginning.” Lonely, helpless and hopeless were eroding me. I even felt pain on my heart. For now, I still can remember that feeling. It was so frustrated, so upset, so painful (physically painful). However, there was a voice in my mind always told me, “Keep an empty space in your mind, no matter what happens, just keep it.”
One day, I came back home from work. My dad told me: “you should go to America.” So, Aug. 08, 2016, I arrived at Logan Airport. At that Sunday, I went to Befree Church in Dover. It was the first time in my life to go to church. When I walked in, I felt a lot. Peace, pleasure, strength and so on. I feel I’m like a homeless kid, after experiencing lots of hardships, finally, I found my home. I found my family. I found the most important one in my life—God. This is my third moment with God.
God is so good for me. He sent his only son Jesus on earth. He sacrificed himself for our sins. He did not deserve this, but he still died for us. The reason is that he just loves us so much. Every time, when I lose hope, he helped me to remember that his love is greater than my disappointments, and his plans for my life are better than my dream. Now, I do not worry about my life anymore, because I have Christ. I know he will give me the answers. I just need to do want I need to do, that’s all. Jesus is my dependence. He will never give me up. Getting Baptized is very meaningful for me. I really want to tell him and my Christian brothers and sisters that I offer my whole life and spirit to Jesus, obey the Word of God and live a new life. No one and nothing can stop me to love him.