October was a little busy for me but I really enjoyed what I did for work. We hiked with students at Hocking Hills, which was pretty fun. We also organized a pumpkin carving event. Although I was busy doing lots of preparation work, I really enjoyed the event. I’m thankful that IFI helped me discovered that I love event planning. I hope I can pursue this kind of jobs when I return to China.
During the three years I became a Christian, I know at least 5 relatives or family friends who passed away. They were not Christians. I felt very sad when hearing about their death. I also asked myself why I didn’t share the Gospel with them in time. I feel a sense of helplessness. I believe that death is a scary topic for lots of people. Lots of people don’t like to think about death because they are unaware what will happen. But because we have Jesus, the only way, we have hope when we face death.
I’m feeling down spiritually these days. I tended to look for other things to satisfy myself instead of God, and it turned out that nothing can truly satisfy me other than God. But I still believe in the lies sometime that Christianity is more of a religion than a relationship. I think I’m struggling a little bit spiritually. I need lots of prayer. I hope God can make changes. God is more meaningful than any other things in the world. I hope I can grasp tightly the most meaningful thing.
Finally, I really look forward that my dad and my brother are coming to the US in January. I’m also looking forward to my new phase of life when I go back to China for good in January. I hope I can rely on God no matter what. I hope I can remember that He is good, all the time. There are too many people nowadays don’t see God as their Lord. However, I want to live in the truth and win other lives over for God.
Lin