I thank God for his glorious and wonderful preparation and guidance of me. The more I studied in the disciple training of the ISEED program the more I am thankful to God as I felt that my heart is ready to hear from God. God, through the disciple training, started to open my heart to receive the Scripture as the personal words to me from God. I started to have the faith to believe the Bible verses in a relevant and personal way as God places them on my hearts. For the first time of my life, I dared to believe and accept the truth that God does not want anyone to perish but to come to repentance, to be saved, and should be sanctified.
From reading the Scripture that I believe and pray God to continue to reveal Himself to me and the life goals he has for me. Two most important life purposes Jesus identified from the law of God are becoming alive in my heart while in the past that I did not take them seriously. The Lord is one and love God with all my heart, my soul, my mind, and my strength and, love others as myself. The life purposes of mine will act as a direction for everyday activities and a reminder how I should determine my priorities.
God is opening my heart to hear his voice. He recognizes and affirm my crying out to him in heartfelt confession. God will give victory in me. He understands but he does not want me to buy into the idea that living in victory is impossible and stops trying and giving on God’s vision of holiness and considers a more realistic Christian existence.
From reading and meditating on one of the books we study together last week, I started to come to see for the first time what it means that I died with Christ. It is not I who live this new life but Christ who is in me lives this life through me and for me. Since this month I have started to see clients in my Christian Counseling internship, by knowing that I died with Christ on the cross and Christ in me lives my life frees me from worrying performance and opinions and affirmations of others, instead depending and trusting that the Lord will guide and teach me while I seek first for His good counsel to provide people good counsel that will bring deep and lasting personality changes within one’s life. It is so good to be able to have the “me, self” off the spotlight!