The year 2020 was a year filled with so much uncertainty and questions than answers, the world evolved without our permission, or pre-informing human kind. The world was unified by the fear of a pandemic. I Felt like I needed a refund of 2020 cause I barely had all the months to myself, but, wait! I still found purpose, I still felt his leading hands even in the middle of a pandemic, molding and shaping me to be better. Growing through the lens of God’s words and truth has become a powerful instrument. The ISEED program was a timely blessing, the pandemic was emotionally draining, but coming to understand the disciples cross, I learnt emotions are God made and can also be God refined to keep me grounded in faith. In one of our ISEED classes, we discussed about the mastery of ones emotions as a follower of Jesus. God can work through anything, that includes the bad and ugly. The book titled “The Rest of the Gospel” is one of the book we are studying in the ISEED program. The teaching from this book has helped me understand that evil doesn’t come from God but God can work with events in our lives for our good because he loves us deeply. His love reveals his truth to us, against every lies that will harm our mind or hurt us. Even when it doesn’t make sense to the human mind, be rest assured that Jesus can make a miracle out of a mess, I am able to look back at the year 2020 in the year 2021, to the things I never understood and still see Jesus.